what do i need ???

I need time
Don't need heroin
nor alcohol nor nicotine
I don't need your help
Nor caffeine
I don't need a friend
Neither cocaine
I need neither a doctor
nor medicine
I don't need a woman
just Vaseline
I dont need no air
neither propylene
I have no use for the gun
my target is unseen
My rage spilling over
got some alkaline?
Maybe i need to sleep
blissful and pristine


L I F E
It flows through my veins
It leaks from my ears
Cranking up all our pains
It sleeps in my tears



" When I want your opinion, I'll give it to you."
- ME

i-drive

ever wondered..why is the sky a beautiful red ...what pisses u off most... why do u read loser blogs ?... everwondered.... What drives u.. i wondered..
Passion they say... passion fr wat ? fr whom.. cars.. speed.. work.. respect.. aah. respect.. the 7 letter word that makes the world go round for most of us..respect surely drives me.. the respect..earned out of hard work.. makin sacrifices..cutting sleep.. yea. THAT drives me..
Respect fr me in my own eyes.. my own head.. paramount..dont u think ?.. like fuck i care what u think..
Speed is another drug that drives me.. think the worlds a bit too slow fr me.. what i might do ..might be looked upon as going about something a bit too fast..
i say.. ur going a bit toooo slow..
the point of this blog is lost. . like the state of my mind.. now i dont even knw what im furiously typing.. maybe now just the sound of the tapping keys wants me to keep doint it faster.. n hope ot god.. it makes some semblance of sense..
whats my worst fear.. letting ppl down.. yea.. that.. breaking the trust.. fiath that htey show in me.. my friends.. my foes.. parents.. yea.. them.. parents.. i love em.. cant though get myself to say i love them.. idiotic it is... the ego.. yea.. kill it.. a murder that would save ur life..


" I'll be back baby, I just gotta beat this clock
fuck this clock, I'm-a make 'em eat this watch,
Don't believe me? Watch, I'm-a win this race,
and I'm-a come back and rub my shit in your face, bitch!
I found my niche, you gonna hear my voice,
'til you're sick of it, you ain't gonna have a choice,
if I gotta scream till I have half a lung,
if I have half a chance I'll grab it, Rabbit Run... "

When the music stops !!!

The idea of the 'i' somehow..seems to fascinate and scare the shit out of me.. at the same time.. wierd though.. talking about myself comes naturally to me.. just like...well..putting my foot in my own mouth..
You see..i havent blogged for quite some time now.. why and how are immaterial questions.. but the fact remains.. i would require atleast a couple of posts on this stupid page to shake off the muck and the rust.. so folks bear with me.. or like hell.. get lost.. see the back button on top.. yea that green one.. its like ur eject button.. quite like your oxygen mask..if the (my) opinions here get too pungent for your liking...

have u had one of those days.. the clock seems to have a life of its own.. stopping at will.. whizzing pas at other times.. ever observed it..closely.. ever wondered the significance of the moving hand.. something that would never ever happen again.. that second.. those hours are gone.. yea gone.. done n dusted for eternity.. if only you could hold on to those clockhands are wrench it the other way.. hoping against hope to turn back time.. turn back time and do what.. what ?? make decisions.. take a second shot.. remake some others.. shun most.. and burn the rest..
The only thing that seems to swing now is the mood.. swinging that will put the pendulum to shame.. for the depths of despair..to even deeper shit.. the only light u see is the sunlight from the wrong site of the shit-pot. angry are u ? angry .. why ?? what ?? at whom ?? if u cant answer them.. thend dude.. ur one of us.. the not-a-clue anonymous.. big club..ours is.. you wouldnt beleive.. ya even if u didnt.. like i even cared.. ya bah !!
What coudl have been.. could have changed.. is quite like the other side of the moon.. no1 has a fuckin clue.. then again.. who cares abt the other side.. the flipside..what awaits us.. what could.. this is like that ? like the flipside ?? no1 cares ?? i dont blv it.. they do.. we all do.. just that we live in denial.. engineering makes u take the 'ignorance is bliss' shit... way too seriously....

so IGNORANCE IS BLISS.. let me go to hell.....

"if all the world's a stage.. then we all are horribly underprepared "

- Why do u care !!